About me…Well, I am a female, just turned thirty, living in Miami.
I’m originally from Scandinavia, was abused sexually and emotionally in my childhood by my father, “forgot” about it until it started coming back in flashbacks 8 years ago.
There was domestic violence going on as well, and I know my father abused other girls. Not sure about my brother. I left as soon as I could, traveled around and mostly lived in England for ten years before my move to the US.
I’ve been diagnosed with various mental health issues in my life – , obsessive compulsive disorder, adolescent maladjustment, anorexia nervosa, depression, borderline personality disorder, anxiety..I think it all comes from my childhood. It’s like, I was happy in a way, but..something was always wrong. The trauma and abuse gave me a blueprint of emotional instability and restlessness.
I got married in 2013 to a wonderful man who kind of knows about my abuse but we don’t talk about it. After being raped in college and having been in many unhealthy relationships, his “normalcy” is welcoming, but stressful to a person like me.
This blog started out as a way of writing a journal about my emotions in a raw and honest manner, and I have since met wonderful people through the online community of survivors.
I chose the name Little Girl In The Rain because it’s kind of how I feel; quite alone in my distress yet seemingly calm; a girl enjoying the downpour while knowing I’m on my own in this world and the only person who can save me is me.
The water is cleansing, but it has an element of self-harm; torture of the self with elements of nature that are both good for you yet painful.
I thank you for stopping by, please say hello, and if there is anything you feel you’d like to hear me write about, let me know!