Sorry folks one has been busy and all over the place mentally to be able to sit down and write up what’s going on in my life. I do feel like this blog is my only place to be honest and vent all my anxieties but I am not always able to concentrate on writing…
Yeah it’s like really hard to take time out to blog. It’s weird, it’s like I want to jot down all my thoughts and emotions but something stops me from taking the time out to type it all down. I wish I had more energy to post, I think it’s that I feel lethargic and really tired all the time and so simple things like blogging and emailing take too much effort and so I don’t do it.
I don’t really actually do anything at all. I have now been unemployed for two months, and the bulk of my time is spent in bed. I could sleep 24/7 for a week and still not have any energy to move!
I don’t know what it is. Maybe it’s all the changes that’s happened? I’m just really really tired all the time!!!
This year has been crazy for any normal person to handle, let alone someone like me with pre-existing issues…But I do try! I hold on to life and hopes of a better tomorrow.
I luckily have amazing support around me that I can talk to sometimes – I have finally really opened up to some old friends and some have been shocked when I’ve disclosed the abuse or self-harm or my mental health issues. I just feel like I can’t go on lying to people and hiding my true self – this is who I am, if people love me then they will love all my sides.
There have been some big changes that I want to write about, so let’s hope I keep having energy to come online and post about it all!
Take good care guys!