I have previously mentioned how I had been diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder by someone working in the mental health team that took me on from being referred by my doctor a few years ago.
I am fairly comfortable with that diagnosis – and no, I don’t think I explain things away by saying that’s what I have, but I would like some sympathy I guess but this never happens. Just have to keep on keeping on I guess.
This weekend I was on the BBC website when I saw a link to a Narcissistic Personality Disorder quiz through one of their articles, and thought I’d send it to my housemate as I strongly believe he has it; would be nice if he figured it out too so he’d get some help….It is not nice being at the receiving end of the self-centeredness.
I however thought I’d take this quiz as well for the shits and giggles, and OMG I scored REALLY highly on the scale and it suggested I for sure am narcissistic!
I was shocked! I mean, I have been told by multiple people that I am selfish and self-centered and don’t care about people (truths) but I never thought I’d actually have a personality disorder!
So I went to my therapist this morning claiming that he must have known about it, but haven’t said anything to me, and I was upset that he hasn’t. Again, as his style is, he didn’t say anything about that but wondered why it would be important for me know what his diagnosis of me is…?!
I’m so tired of begging for a diagnosis – I know something is wrong with me as I am on anti-depressants and in the mental health care system, but it bugs me that no one has written it on paper what they think I have. I think a diagnosis would be so much easier to take than general mental problems and difficulties which seem to make no sense.
So I guess I have to believe this quiz and think that I have that disorder instead. It does fit me quite well and as shocking as it is, at least now I know to stay far away from people so I won’t hurt anyone else again with my selfishness. Time to be allllllll alone.
LittleGirl x x