It is that time of the year again when new year’s resolutions are made, and people think more deeply about their lives and where they’re heading to (at least I do!)
I didn’t make any resolutions – however I did make a long list of things I want to accomplish before my next birthday in November, so I have enough goals to try to get to in the next 11 months.
I had a good Christmas and a shitty New Year. Not going into it all but it’s just been a time of negative emotions and sadness and change. Maybe one day I can talk about it…..
Back to my shit job after a long break. I am determined to make a change this year – part of me wants to give up and just take time out and find peace of mind, but there also is a part that wants a new challenge and wants a better and more meaningful job and an opportunity to take on more responsibilities. Which part will win?
I do feel like I need a break. I want a time out! I have finally REALLY started communicating with my therapist (after a year!!) and I miss my sessions on the days I don’t have them. I have so much to say! Maybe one day I will go into the deep parts of my mind and start talking about the abuse, but I haven’t done so yet…..
It’ll come. I really want to make this therapy work and although I am very afraid of the unknown, I think it’ll be a huge benefit for me to explore the hidden memories and while I know it’ll be horrible to possibly remember the abuse and my childhood, maybe it’ll help me move on and live a better life in the future.